oh goddammit the sick kitten died.

:(

i went to petsmart today and got him some nutracal (kitten version) and some new KMR, and a couple of toys for everyone. the instructions on the nutracal say to just put it on their paws or the tube it comes in and the kittens will lick it off, since it is "tasty" or whatever they call it.

the two non-sick kittens were licking it right off my fingers. the sick one, though? i could put it ON HIS MOUTH and he wouldn't make an effort to lick it off. i eventually mixed it with some KMR formula so i could use a medicine dropper to put some in his mouth. i gave him about a teaspoon of the mixture. when he would have it in his mouth but wouldn't bother to swallow it, so i'd have to move him to prompt him to do anything.. that's when i knew the situation was very grim. but i gotta stay optimistic when it comes to stuff like this. then i had to go to class.

while at class, i was thinking about how i should hold him tonight while i was reading. i've held him quite a bit, but not for prolonged amounts of time... and he was so sick, and probably would've taken comfort in a mama to snuggle against. the way it was, he seemed to prefer to lay on a towel with his head resting on the water bowl. really sad looking. so i figured i would try, put him on my lap in a blanket or something.

but by the time i got home from class, it was too late. poor little thing. i wish at least i would've been here so he didn't die alone on a towel...

the other kittens? they're doing great. i got the grumpy one to purr (once).

it's a bummer. it always seems like one kitten doesn't make it though. my first batch of kittens made it to 8 weeks and into their new home, and then the one died. one of oreo's died. one of the kittens from under the truck died when we had them here in the garage before they were adopted out. both of the kittens from church survived, thankfully.

so now i have to try to find them homes. i gotta give them back in a little over a week and the thought of just sending them back to the shelter without any prospective homes makes me feel really, really bad - there are just so many kittens there. i don't feel like they have a chance.  ¶ 6:46 PM