Tuesday, September 27, 2005
on the subject of dumb blondes
a friend yesterday told me that i come off as "dumb." this is how it was said, actually, "I just said there is something about you that makes you seem, um, dumb?" not that i am dumb, she said. i just come off that way.
when things like this happen, i tend to go off on the anti-social deep end: "fine, i just won't talk then." just like when someone said i was, well, fat. i made a no-bathing-suit-or-less rule, by which i stood for a good three or four months. even at the beach.
eventually being modest became more trouble than it was worth. and i can't imagine life would be much fun as a mute.
this, of course, does not stop me from continuing to think, "fine, i just won't talk then," every time my mind wanders to this subject. nor does it stop me from being relieved that there is no one in my life right now whose opinion matters on my fat-or-not status. and both of those things make me wish people who were supposed to have been the ones to make me think nice things about myself and could have... well, not have been the ones to make me feel like this.
:( ΒΆ 1:34 PM
when things like this happen, i tend to go off on the anti-social deep end: "fine, i just won't talk then." just like when someone said i was, well, fat. i made a no-bathing-suit-or-less rule, by which i stood for a good three or four months. even at the beach.
eventually being modest became more trouble than it was worth. and i can't imagine life would be much fun as a mute.
this, of course, does not stop me from continuing to think, "fine, i just won't talk then," every time my mind wanders to this subject. nor does it stop me from being relieved that there is no one in my life right now whose opinion matters on my fat-or-not status. and both of those things make me wish people who were supposed to have been the ones to make me think nice things about myself and could have... well, not have been the ones to make me feel like this.
:( ΒΆ 1:34 PM
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you mean like when I said "you're acting like a bitch" and you didn't talk to me for like a year or so :)
right, larke, something like that. except i really didn't count it as a loss to not be talking to you.. :D
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