Friday, September 09, 2005
i guess they like 'em thick
alright, so i have gained a good eight pounds from my near-constant weight of the past two years. eight freaking pounds!
now, considering at my constant weight (you like how i don't name the numbers?), i know there's room for improvement, to think of that plus eight pounds is pretty horrific for me.
the funny thing is, i am getting the same, if not more, attention from men right now. seriously, over the past couple of weeks i've had trips to publix where i'm gesturing at men by the time i get back to my car. you know, the "what the HELL are you looking at?!" one. i've had men look at me, then nudge their friends to look at me too. or nod their head at me to get their buddies' attention. that heads-up move is one i've just begun to notice. that is really.. i dunno.. weird. creepy. and rude, really.
now, i'm pretty sure these 8 pounds haven't knocked me into the morbid-curiosity category, so i'm pretty sure it's because the boys think i look good in one way or another.
so all this has gotten me to thinking.. i guess i should chill out about the whole weight thing. now, not to say "let myself go" or even "stay at constant+8" - i'm not practicing healthy habits right now, and being healthier will no doubt lead to losing weight, so.. weight loss is inevitable, if i'm a good girl. but maybe fretting about my weight 8 pounds ago wasn't all that.. necessary.
in any case, this leads me to an eventual weight-loss goal of.. hmm.. right around 15-20 pounds. i got 'til the end of the year to do it. can't go home being a morbid curiosity, you know. ;) naw, really, i just think that if i were eating right and going to the gym regularly, that's probably a weight where i would settle. i definitely gotta lose those eight tho, pronto; having all your clothes look bad is not a good thing. and i refuse to buy a "thicker" wardrobe! ΒΆ 11:37 AM
now, considering at my constant weight (you like how i don't name the numbers?), i know there's room for improvement, to think of that plus eight pounds is pretty horrific for me.
the funny thing is, i am getting the same, if not more, attention from men right now. seriously, over the past couple of weeks i've had trips to publix where i'm gesturing at men by the time i get back to my car. you know, the "what the HELL are you looking at?!" one. i've had men look at me, then nudge their friends to look at me too. or nod their head at me to get their buddies' attention. that heads-up move is one i've just begun to notice. that is really.. i dunno.. weird. creepy. and rude, really.
now, i'm pretty sure these 8 pounds haven't knocked me into the morbid-curiosity category, so i'm pretty sure it's because the boys think i look good in one way or another.
so all this has gotten me to thinking.. i guess i should chill out about the whole weight thing. now, not to say "let myself go" or even "stay at constant+8" - i'm not practicing healthy habits right now, and being healthier will no doubt lead to losing weight, so.. weight loss is inevitable, if i'm a good girl. but maybe fretting about my weight 8 pounds ago wasn't all that.. necessary.
in any case, this leads me to an eventual weight-loss goal of.. hmm.. right around 15-20 pounds. i got 'til the end of the year to do it. can't go home being a morbid curiosity, you know. ;) naw, really, i just think that if i were eating right and going to the gym regularly, that's probably a weight where i would settle. i definitely gotta lose those eight tho, pronto; having all your clothes look bad is not a good thing. and i refuse to buy a "thicker" wardrobe! ΒΆ 11:37 AM
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