adventures in adopting a cat so as you've seen, my audience of one or whatever, i'm in the market for a new little cat.

looking has been horrible. it's been horrible.

there are so, so many adorable sweeties out there. sweeties that won't try to disembowel your hand for rubbing their bellies. cats that will push themselves against the bars of their cages for a head scratch. kitties that will purr the instant you touch them. so many good cats that want good homes! so many that deserve more than they have. so how do i choose? how do i even start? sweet, playful tuxedo cat over there.. loving, snuggly cat that's been at the shelter for a YEAR over there.. it just sucks.

so i went back to the starting point, the first cat i had a feeling about, that being the scared little halloween cat at petsmart. they named him shadow. he's 6 months old and was feral-caught. he's since stopped thrashing when people hold him and now just sits, terrified. the thing is, though, i think he's even improved since last week - not such a scramble to get back into the cage, back into the corner when i let him go. he sniffs other kitties and lets dogs get close and bark and just sits, taking everything in, tail between his legs. it's like a terrified baby. i put my application in tonight.

i'm kinda operating under the belief that i have one more spot left for a cat and i should fill it with a good cat, but one that may not get a chance otherwise. that leaves me with an adult cat, an ugly cat, or a problemed cat. i guess i'm going for door number three.

today, i had called about a cat on craigslist. the lady called me back just now and i am so tempted to be like, "sure, i'll take her!" she sounds sweet and i love the kitties that talk. but i want to take shadow too. so i can't take this one. aggh, difficulty.

so this has been an exercise in feeling useless.


this is the kitten, skittles, that i fell in love with. he'll find a home.


see how cute? sorry it's so blurry; i don't feel right about using flash on babies or little animals. as for you adults..


i obviously forgot to turn the flash off for this one. this is the calf kitten being adopted by one of the shelter workers. such an adorable, sweet little kitten. he wanted out of his carrier while i was filling out the app., so i took him out and put him on my shoulder, parrot style, and that's where he hung out until i was done.


look at those neat spots!


this is the biggest cat on earth. 9 years old, the size of a suckling pig, and now at the humane society. all i'm saying is there had better be a damn good reason for that.


this is my future cat, assuming all goes through as desired. i need to think of a new name. i'm excited. :) all it will amount to for a while is the knowledge i have a cat under my bed, but maybe someday soon he'll start to trust me and the kitten and be happy. take that tail out from between his legs. i hope so.  ¶ 8:09 PM